Perception and time

Perception and time have been rolling around in my head for a few days. When I was in junior high school the seniors seemed so sophisticated, stylish and knowledgeable. They seem to understand life and where they were going. I looked up to them and I wished to be like them one day. I had the same feeling while in high school. When it was my turn as a senior I did not feel sophisticated, stylish or knowledgeable. I was insecure and did not know what I wanted out of life. Did anyone look up to me that same way?

There is perception of a situation and then there is reality. The focus was always looking forward to what is new and what will be the next experience. What will it feel like instead of living and enjoying the present. A change is this perception must be part of the wisdom of getting older.

My relationship with time has been very intriguing. I rushed time as a child, never wanting to be still. I was always adding on and accumulating experiences. I did not allow these experiences to be processed and allow them to resonate in me but rather I barreled on wanting more and more. One day, in a quite moment, it starts.... thinking about the experiences and perceptions I've carried with me from my childhood. With time I am now able to see how I got to where I am standing today.

I am trying to live consciously and not worry about perception and time. To be able to look back at my life with the benefit of some life experience is a gift of time and it has changed my perception.

Perception and time aka welcome to adultville!